stage frustration, kg

i don't mean to be the bad guy but often there are things that happen during a gig where i lose control of my temper momentarily and want to reprimand people haha. i know last night was not an isolated thing because i've made bandmates cry before (upfair 2004? 05? i'm not sure) and i've been confronted more than once about it and i know i really should be a lot calmer onstage and they're just songs and mistakes don't really mean the end of the world haha, but i dunno it's not me doing the reprimanding hahaha

i know it's just not me, either. i haven't seen it personally but ean keeps telling these stories of some bandmember having these spats of just kicking bandmates, or giving evil stares cause of mistakes or being off time or out of tune or something. and i don't think ean and i can forget that rivermaya gig where rico was just kicking his pedalboard and then kicking the roadie who was trying to fix the problem with the pedalboard hahaha (i remember thinking "wow idol ko sya" hahahaha)

and i don't know usually i'm a pretty stubborn person but i feel guilty when i lose it with shirley haha awww cue sappy music.  sorry bandmates you know who you are hahaha

and in other news kevin garnett is now a celtic. boston now has paul pierce, ray allen, and kevin garnett. wow. that's the sound of the balance of power shifting. hahahaha ang weird ng english.

nasa akin ang kapangyarihang sakupin ang buong mundo pero di ko kayang sakupin ang puso mo,

-owel